22.7.2016 | 00:36
I used to have some interesting “secret identities.”
A while back, as a writer of Young Adult fantasy novels, I called myself “The Fairy CatMother.” It was on my business cards, and a large part of my promotional material – pens, t-shirts, tote bags….
It was even the name of my author website.
When I started my Reiki practice, and was learning other energy work, I identified as the “Divine Dragon.” According to Western astrology, I’m a Sagittarius (Fire sign). As for Chinese astrology, I’m a Dragon – and my element is Fire.
I’ve got a strong affinity to the Archangel Michael – the dude with the flaming sword….
Cats and dragons … not exactly creatures immediately associated with swimming.
Yet here I am.
It started simply enough – I just wanted to study aromatherapy.
I had to read an Anatomy and Physiology textbook.
“I can’t do this – I have an English degree! I took ‘Science for Liberal Arts majors’!!”
I almost quit before I started.
But I didn’t.
I read the whole damn textbook.
(Have you ever actually read a science textbook? As one of my mentors said, they’re meant to be taught, not read.)
After that, I studied at the Institute of Transformational Nutrition.
Having that textbook under my belt helped a lot – I actually recognized some of the scientific concepts we studied, and felt almost familiar with them.
There’s a lot of science.
I’m even more grateful that I had to read that textbook.
I think I’m even starting to understand the Krebs cycle.
(Editor: aka the Citric Acid cycle.)
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It’s kept me from drowning in a sea of new and unfamiliar concepts.
I always thought I sucked at science.
I had really bad science teachers back in my school days, and just thought I didn’t “get it.”
I thought I would never “get it.”
Now I watch science lectures for fun.
I keep signing up for more and more courses, diving ever deeper into some of these scientific concepts.
And … I’m not drowning in them.
I’m learning to swim!!
So yay, me – I’m turning into Science Girl. Well, okay, maybe Science Girl Light. I’m no Stephen Hawking.
But have no fear – having stretched my comfort zone to include the dreaded Science, I’m now having to push a little farther….
That’s right – now I’m having to tackle something even more difficult for me:
But wait – that’s Debra’s job, right? She handles the tech side of Letchworth Sisters Wellness. All I need to do is create most of the content.
I write blog articles! I appear as a guest on podcasts!! I even made my first video!!!
What more does the Universe want from me???
The Universe wants me to learn how to navigate spreadsheets, and host group calls, and, and, and….
I know, I know: Doesn’t everyone know their way around spreadsheets, Power Point slides, and teleconferences?
Um … no?
I don’t consider myself a Luddite, and I have no desire to live an Amish lifestyle, but I somehow thought I could do this work and just let everyone else take care of the tech stuff.
It doesn’t quite work that way.
There are things I need to know.
I need to know these things because I can’t do what I really want to do – be of service to others – if I don’t have a reasonable working knowledge of how to handle this technology.
I will be honest with you:
I am terrified!!
I mean, yeah, sure, I got over being perfect a long time ago, whatever “perfect” even means.
But I don’t want to seem completely incompetent either.
Those are pretty distant points along a spectrum, thankfully, so I’m optimistic that I’ll find a comfortable – but not too comfortable; I need to grow, after all – place somewhere along that line….
I guess I’m fortunate that I share a business with a Water sign – and quite the “Dynamic Dolphin,” at that – so that I can be buoyed up during the learning process.
I’m pretty good at treading water too….
And I have the most awesome circle of friends and colleagues, people who are willing to help me, and guide me through this process.
Maybe once I’ve navigated my way through these treacherous (to me) waters, and found my way past Scylla and Charybdis – yes, I am still an English major at heart; read The Odyssey if you haven’t already – I’ll be able to help guide others to the other side.
Admittedly, I can’t quite see that happening any time soon – I guess I need to brush up on my visualization skills!! – but hey, a few years ago I never would have thought I’d have a grasp on anatomy, physiology or biochemistry either….
And now I even know which section of the small intestine comes first, which comes last, and which is in the middle.
And I don’t even have to look it up in the big ol’ textbook!!