8.3.2016 | 03:03
I am really struggling to write today, folks.
Oh, I have lots of ideas, but … they’re all confused in my head today.
I feel like I’m trapped in Limbo, where I have all of these decisions I have to make and I don’t know where to start.
I’m being pulled in different directions professionally and personally.
And like so many of us, I’m struggling to know which opportunities to let go….
Or maybe I should I just hold on to all of them and just learn to manage my time really, really efficiently….
I know I can do this, but I am banging smack against my own limiting beliefs today.
I’ve got old commitments coming due, and new ones which have become equally important to me, and I’m just floundering around trying to figure out where to devote my attention.
I feel as though I’m drowning in the fear of not living up to others’ – and, more importantly, my own – expectations.
And on top of that, I’m still waiting for the results of my hair analysis test to determine if I have any sort of heavy metal toxicity….
I’ve got a couple of older cats who’ve been having a series of health challenges over the past several weeks, and that always weighs heavy on my mind.
No pressure, right?
I’m feeling a serious crisis of confidence right now.
It’s like – I know I’ve got the skills, the talents, the desire.
But there’s something creating a huge bubble of fear in and around me….
I’m pretty sure it’s those “Upper Limit” issues Gay Hendricks discusses in his book The Big Leap.
You know what I’m talking about:
Those inner voices, the gremlins, who represent your Ego.
The thing is, fighting and railing against the Ego doesn’t really do any good. It’s only trying to protect you (me!!) from getting hurt, from failing and being disappointed … again, like you (I!!) have so many times in the past….
I’ve been working on my limiting beliefs since I first read Hendricks’ book and “got it.”
Yep, that was me, all right – chock full of limiting beliefs, imaginary “upper limits,” you name it….
(Me and everyone else in the world. We all fight this one.)
I guess I just want you to know that I know what these feelings are like.
I know how it feels to put so much pressure on yourself that you collapse under it. (That actually happened to me late last year. It really taught me a valuable lesson, which is why I’m working to make sure I don’t fall into that trap again this time….)
I am considering my choices mindfully, and I am not going to over-commit, regardless of the pressure from outside.
I’ve been reading a lot about the power of saying “No” when something is just more than we can handle.
And here’s the thing:
No one else really knows the level we can handle. Only we know that.
So I’m just going to make some lists, divide the large tasks into smaller ones, and get busy.
Without biting off more than I can chew.
As I discussed recently, I know my limitations.
More importantly, I accept them.
Well, for now, anyway.
Once I let go of those last limiting beliefs and break through my “Upper Limit” ceiling, it will be like they say:
“The sky’s the limit.”
Maybe that’s where my Zone of Genius will turn out to be….